Perfect
“The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself.”
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When I was young, I tried to be perfect. I didn’t like making mistakes. A math or spelling test score of 98 wasn’t quite good enough; I wanted the perfect score of 100. And in mid-life, I still didn’t like making mistakes, forgetting something, or having a typo in a newsletter. I strove for perfection.
I believed going for “perfect” was admirable, and I should never make a mistake, disappoint another, or fail at anything. Boy, was I wrong! I didn’t know that trying to be perfect caused stress and was unhealthy.
In Brené Brown’s book, The Gifts of Imperfection, she talks about the fear of not being good enough and the courage to be imperfect. I was surprised many years ago when my husband said, “Sherry, I’m just an ordinary person.” I didn’t like hearing that because I thought he was extraordinary. I’ve since learned what a valuable belief that is and what it means: “I’m not perfect, and don’t pretend to be. I’m a person who makes mistakes, and that’s okay because I’m only human.” It was a new concept to me.
It fits with another of Brené’s concepts of letting go of who we think we’re supposed to be or should be and embracing who we are. Walking into the classroom on the first day of graduate school, I saw this statement on the whiteboard: Don’t Should On Yourself Today. As I’d never seen the phrase before, I was baffled, but it’s become one of my favorite sayings. Even now, I occasionally hear myself thinking, “You should never make a mistake, you should always feel optimistic and happy, and you should be perfect.” Finally, I’ve learned that those are impossible goals that cause me distress because I will make mistakes, I will sometimes feel cranky or sad, I will disappoint, I will lose my temper, and I will never be perfect. What a relief to know I don’t have to be.
I’m re-reading Matthew Kelly’s book, Perfectly Yourself: Nine Lessons for Enduring Happiness. He writes this is “a book for all of us who long to be at peace with who we are, where we are, and what we are doing, not in some distant tomorrow but here and now – today.” The concepts align “perfectly” with Brené’s in embracing who we are and not succumbing to the unrealistic goals encased in perfectionism.
I recently saw a silver wrap-around ring for sale on social media with these engraved words: I am enough. I bought myself one and one for both of my daughters. Even though I know those words to be true, it’s comforting to have a visual reminder when I tend to doubt or “should on” myself. It helps me to embrace who I am. Another favorite saying comes from my husband: Remember who you are. I need to hear both phrases frequently when I doubt my abilities and self-worth.
I have a small plaque in my office that says Dance Like There’s Nobody Watching. It’s taken me years to do precisely that, which is why I love the song I Hope You Dance, based on the narration of a mother expressing the wish that her children will step out and embrace life.
I hope you embrace life, don’t should on yourself, remember who you are, and forget perfect.
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